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Chapters posted!

June 25th, 2015 (08:06 pm)

The first few chapters are up on my website. It's under the Dawn fiction link! I'll keep updating when I can. http://oxrosesthornxo.angelfire.com/index.html

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small update

May 31st, 2015 (07:14 pm)

Not sure who is still here, but I appreciate all the kind words and comments. I will leave my stuff up. And since my website costs next to nothing, I don't see me ever taking it down. On top of that, my sister has agreed to help me upload everything that I haven't finished, meaning the sequel to "Long Time Gone" will be up, at least to the point where I just lost all ability to write. I damn near finished the story, so it makes me SO ANGRY I can't seem to finish it. I've opened it over and over and tried so hard to write anything, even just a paragraph. It's like I've lost the ability. I don't know if it came from depression, or medication I took because of the depression, or what. I'm still looking into avenues of treatment. I did make one huge accomplishment and moved out of the terrible environment I was living in, and I already feel so much better, but it's only been a month. I see myself getting better over time, and hopefully, that spark will return one day and I'll just feel the need to write again. So, as soon as my sister and I can work out a day to get together (I work over 60 hours a week and she's a full-time worker AND a full-time mom), I will let everyone know about the update. Thank all of you so much! 

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Not sure what to do.

July 26th, 2013 (11:44 pm)

I don't know if anyone can give me advice here, so this may just be some venting. I know I haven't posted. But lately, I've gotten a review or two that seems more than a little frustrated that I haven't finished a story. I understand that. One of my absolutely favorite stories (non-Buffy fandom) is never updated unless the author gets enough Paypal donations. I think that's awful, but I'm addicted to the story, and can't quit. And no, this isn't me begging for money. I would never in a million years do that.

I don't know if I should remove my unfinished stories, or leave what's finished out there, in case one day I have the time again. I don't know how to explain to people (mostly teenagers, I'm guessing by their grammar issues) that real life can royally suck. I love writing, and I miss it dearly. But I live with my elderly grandparents who can barely get around. That's a full time job on its own. On top of that, I have a retail job. On top of THAT, I'm currently in therapy, and they can't decide if I'm autistic or have Borderline Personality Disorder, so as of now I'm not medicated and suffering from severe depression and anxiety. My stress levels are through the roof, and when I do have time to sit down, all I can manage to do is completely zone out. There are other issues, but since I'm not the only one involved, I will keep those to myself.

The immature, stressed out part of me kind of wants to blow up on these people, but I know that's not the person I truly am. I know what it's like to be frustrated by a lack of updates, or a dead story. So, would you remove the stories, or leave them? I really don't know what would be better. There are a few stories I love that were never finished in the Buffy fandom. I love the fact that I can read them up to that point, instead of not at all. Any feedback would be appreciated, and I will reply when I can. (IE: when I remember I have an email account, and it needs checking! Brain is dead lately.)

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drive by update...

August 12th, 2012 (09:37 pm)

Writing chapter 39... I feel like I should have more accomplished, but considering I basically re-wrote the ENTIRE story once I hit chapter 30, I'm not feeling too badly about it. I'm definitely not sure how long this sequel is going to be, but it's looking like it might go longer than "Long Time Gone." Strange.

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July 15th, 2012 (03:34 pm)

in my head: chipper

Well, here I am. It's been a few months, but I just wanted to drop in and say... I have 30 chapters written for the "Long Time Gone" sequel! Currently, the chapters are in major editing, due to my tendency to rush things, but I have no major changes for the plot, which means full steam ahead. I've been adding small scenes, editing dialogue, nothing major. 

Life is by no means less stressful, but I made a major decision and moved out of my grandparents' house. I had a long talk with my entire family and told them it wasn't my sole responsibility to care for my grandparents, and without help, I would go insane, or move to Canada and never call. So, I now go by once a week and take care of some things, like writing out the bills or paying bills in town since neither of them drive much anymore, and I'm living with the Marie Monster (aka, my sister) until I have enough money put back for an apartment or a down payment on a home. So, other than work-related stress and trying to save money (which I am HORRIBLE at), I'm doing much better, and writing is happening much more often now. Thank you guys for your support and not forgetting about me. You are all the reason I still try to keep in mind not to completely drop out of keeping in touch online. I'm not active in any other fandoms anymore, but Buffy fans have always been different. Which is probably why Buffy is the only fandom I continue to write for. I hope to post some chapters... soon-ish. I only want to start when I know for 90% certain that this story will not result in writer's block and sit for another six months. After all this waiting for something, I definitely don't want to do that to anyone. Well, except my sister, since she's read it all, and I've left her waiting numerous times... heehee, sorry, Marie.

So, don't give up on seeing a chapter posted sometime in the near future! Thanks again. 

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feeling hopeful

March 24th, 2012 (04:46 pm)

Okay, so I didn't abandon post again. I just can't blog as much as I'd like. I just wanted to say the sequel has a solid beginning. I'm three chapters in, and for the first time in my life, I actually outlined the whole story before I let myself write a paragraph. I know that outline is in for some major changes, but at least I have something to go by. My sister is in charge of reading everything over, and I don't plan on posting for quite some time. I'd like to get to a spot where I know I can finish it before I share. Hope that's acceptable! Lol. Back to writing, though. Hope you all have a great day, and thanks for all the encouragement. 

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here I am...

February 26th, 2012 (01:43 pm)

in my head: cheerful

So, things have calmed down. A little. I still have a lot on my plate, but I'm trying to manage it. I sat down yesterday and was all out of fanfic to read, and too lazy to look for anything new, so I started reading 'Impossible,' as a proof-reading thing. I went on my website and corrected a few typos, etc. that I found. 

And thankfully, I fell right back in. I've been writing on the sequel since yesterday. It's VERY slow going at the moment, since I'm not completely engrossed yet as to the plot and characters. I've lost the Spike voice in my head, so I know I'll be watching a lot of Buffy DVDs in the coming days. But it's happening, and I'm ecstatic. 'Anna Begins' needs a lot of editing, even the stuff I've already posted, but I'm outlining, and adding/deleting paragraphs, and I hope to have it all up and going soon. Of course, getting on my website made me almost barf (I REALLY need an very, very awesome little sister of mine to revamp my web page! *hint,hint*), so that will be worked on, as well. But for write now, just getting the words down is more important to me. I hope I can make writing part of my life again, because I suffer without it.

So, that's all. :)

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reality scores a bitter win...

August 26th, 2011 (10:20 pm)

Hi everyone. Sorry I disappeared on you again. 

For those who don't me (most of you), I live with my grandparents. I moved out for years, but with them getting older, I decided it was best if someone was here. And they were fine for the first two years, but now they're aging, and in bad health. To make a long story sadly short, I've had no time to write. I work a full-time job, and I work another one when I get home, trying to keep the bills paid, the medicine sorted, and the house clean for them. I've never forgotten about writing, but I'm lucky to get five or six hours of sleep a night as it is, so I have no time to get anything down other than a quick idea here or there, so as not to lose it. 

I want to thank you all so much for the encouragement, and I do hope to get another story down one day. 

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a nice progression...

March 5th, 2011 (12:04 pm)

 Hello, there. I just wanted to leave a quick update. I'm working on the sequel to 'Long Time Gone.' The current title is 'Long Road Home.' I know it's the name of an arc from season eight, but that's what I wanted to call it long before they stole my name! Lol. I might change it, I don't know. I was very busy for about a week, just trying to find fitting music for the new plot, but I have enough to work with at the moment. (Suggestions are always welcome, though!) The first two chapters are completed, and with my beta, the Marie monster. I don't want to post anything until I have a definite outline going. I'm currently outlining chapter six, so the worries that I'm going to write myself into a corner are slowly disappearing. I always worry when I don't have a major antagonist for a story, so it might be a bit before I feel confident enough to start posting. Until then, I'll probably disappear for a bit to get some writing done. I'll let everyone interested know when it's ready.

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it's finished *sniffle*

February 25th, 2011 (11:38 pm)

Loooong journey. I had the idea for LTG almost ten years ago. Wow. The first attempt looks nothing like the finished version, but I think it's my favorite story to date. The link is on the first page, just like the last chapter. I'm working on the drop-down menus for every chapter, but it might take me a bit. I also hope to get the soundtrack page finished up, and get some stuff up on the extras page, though that's probably going to be more fun for me than anyone else. I hope you all found something to like in the story. I know writing it helped me a lot. 

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